The Season of the Morons. What's the sense in celebrating the supposed birthday of some dead, prehistoric Jew?

Bah fucking humbug. Once again, the season of stupidity has descended upon asshole America. And so, another stupid, meaningless Thanksgiving has come and gone. The " Season of the morons" as, I often call the Holiday Season has descended upon America once again. Put mildly, I completely lost interest in the celebrating Thanksgiving, "Christ-mas"[Yule-a Pagan holiday that was moved four days ahead on Common Era Calendar], and Easter soon as I was told there was no real Santa Claus, Easter Bunny, Tooth Fairy, or what have you. My best memories of family gatherings? My family and I were at my Aunt Rita and Uncle Sal's for Thanksgiving in North Baldwin. I was 8 years old, the emotionally disturbed child with severe ADHD. As always, like my father constantly told me, I never knew how to act normal when around company. Anyway, as my extended Catholic family prepared to say " Grace"-my Aunt and Uncle being rather pious, I, the misfit " Las fachim-a-mamma" as Dad always called me, reached across the table to for cranberry sauce. Being that I always hated turkey and stinky-ass fish and didn't eat meat of any kind between age 3-13, all I ate was pasta and some vegetables. Anyway, as usual, Dad got all upset, reminding Mom once again that I was a " bastard" and " garblaminca" [ piece of garbage in Italian-American] and yes, an " animal" as he endearingly called me all the time.    


Anyway, so the time came to say " Grace", at which time I folded my hands and loudly exclaimed " WHY DO WE HAVE TO THANK GOD FOR THE FOOD? GOD DOESN'T PROVIDE IT, MOM BUYS IT WITH MONEY AT THE SUPERMARKET!" You may say I was already quite the little Atheist at age eight. Anyway, as usual, Dad sported that John Boehner style look of scorn, complaining to Mom about how " The miserable, ingrate bastard does everything [ it] could to embarrass the family, Evelyn. What the hell's that lousy Jew therapist, Dr. Rosenthal, doing for the miserable moron I don't know?" Being more Christian than a lot of Christians and Catholics usually are, my Aunt Rita and Sal did not say anything; Mom tried to keep the peace.

That said, plus the realization that the fucking Easter Bunny and Santa Claus no longer existed, there was nothing meaningful for me about the three, All-American "stupidity holidays". My sister, Linda Hayduk, said I had asperger's and that was the reason I never " showed any compassion or empathy toward others". This, she did after I was committed to Yale-New Haven Psychiatric Hospital in 2010-11 during the idiot season. Naturally, she was looking for an excuse as to why I " changed genders" in the first place; Asperger's and XXY chromosome disorders showing similar symptoms, I learned from a genderqueer woman I knew in the NMSU Psychology degree program. truthfully, I never was one to "walk fifteen miles out of my way" to buy gifts for others, nor could I see the sense in sending " Christmas Cards" to every fucking relative and friend on the list. Having lived with Mom most of my fucked up life, annually, I'd watch her get all stressed out as she felt imposed to write out and mail everyone on her long list a goddamn Christmas Card.

" What the hell are we celebrating?" I'd often say to her. " The birth of some long dead Jew many people believed was the supposed 'Son' of God? The way I see it, Mom, the whole goddamn holiday season makes absolutely no sense. Why get all stressed out worrying about giving gifts and all just to commemorate the supposed birthday of some long dead Jew?" It never made sense to me. I could see the sense in giving someone a birthday present if one could afford it, but to celebrate the supposed " birthday" of some long deceased ancient Jewish man who walked the Earth? WTF?
Back in 2013 when my Rapid Re-housing HUD Grant expired, rather than go look for some stupid rent-a-slave job at Walmart or McDogshite like my sister suggested, I moved the fuck out of that little rental cottage and into student housing. Need I say my sister gave me a heavy duty lecture about how I do not know how to be grateful and humble; both of which is a load of Christ-centered horseshite and makes me want to vomit when I even heard the words. Believe me, having wasted several years of my fucked up life going to 12-step groups but never being able to " get down my my knees and pray" to some higher power, I developed a disdain for everything having to do with being a " spiritual" person.

The three words that always disgusted me were humility, grace, gratitude. That and love. I could not, and still cannot [ nor want to ever learn how to] be humble, grateful for my house, job, or whatever. That and the whole " love your neighbor as yourself" thing makes absolutely NO SENSE to me. Stupidity to the max. And so, I had to listen to my often critical sister tell me " YOU HAVE NO SENSE OF GRATITUDE. You should be humble and thankful for the 13 months that agency helped you with your rent, for a roof over your head." I think I said something like "Thanks, president Barack Obama for the mostly free rent. The welfare aint' givin me nothing for food stamps nor rental assistance in this piece of crap country the Republicans destroyed."

That all said, truly, I find this whole Holiday Season to be the season of stupidity. The whole idea of giving back to your loved ones and friends registers a " 10" on my shite meter. Even if I were employed I'd do what I could to get the hell out of gong to some dumb Holiday party because, were I to go, I'd more than likely be the asshole who gets drunk and dances on the table with that lamp shade upon my head. That or go screw the boss in the broom closet, or maybe eat her snatch if the boss were a woman; and yes, be out of a job by morning.

And so, let the Season of the Idiots begin. Like every other year, I shall choose to tune in, turn on, and drop out. Stupidity. That and meaninglessness, the thought of wasting my time celebrating what was rumored to be the birthday of some ancient Jew named Jesus. BAH HUMBUG. On this I must agree with Friedrich Nietzsche in his book The Antichrist when he called Christianity the religion of pity, of the downtrodden. The last book Nietzsche wrote before he lost his sanity. Not that I agree with everything Nietzsche said. However, I find it far more relevant to humanity than any of the horseshit foretold in the Bible. Most of the New Testament having been written by PAUL. A half-Roman/ half-Jew who WAS NOT EVEN BORN when the Romans crucified Jesus on the huge wooden cross with the thieves and other criminals; his punishment: terrorism [ and probably mental illness].

One thing Friedrich Nietzsche was right about is this. The Christian religion goes against everything natural to humankind; it is highly self-debasing, the egocentric person being how humans are really supposed to be. Selfish. Not that there's anything wrong with helping others, there isn't anything wrong with it should one wish to do so. After all, for many people, caring about another human being or other animal is normal. That is, if there is such a thing as being " normal". The point about Christianity is this. When Nietzsche labelled it the most self-debasing religion on Earth, he meant that Christianity goes against everything that's human. Like every other beast of the field, humans are inherently SELFISH. That said, one need realize the real reason for being generous; to get something in return.

For example, one falls " in love" with their chosen mate because of what's in it for THEMSELVES. Not for the other person in the relationship or marriage. Should one waste their money buying gifts for another, one need remember this. That the reason for doing so is because they expect the same from the other person. Nobody even knows for sure if there even was a Jesus; secular Bible scholars have said that his name was Yeshua, not " Jesus Christ". According to Dominic Crossan, Elaine Pagels and others, " Christ" was a name given to him by Paul. Yes, PAUL. The guilt-filled asshole born roughly 19 years after they killed Jesus, who in turn became " Saint Paul". The Roman Christian appointed "expert" as to what Jesus supposed "ministry" was all about.

I agree with Friedrich Nietzsche. Christianity is the most unnatural, self-debasing religion in the world. Many in the United, but definitely divided, Asshole of America believe that Islam is the world's wickedest religion. However, Christians have started more wars and killed more humans than any other religious group known to humankind. It's interesting that Nietzsche had a soft spot for Buddhism, seeing it as making far more sense than the whole living in " sin" concept associated with Christianity. That and the fact that most Buddhists see Buddhism as more of a philosophy than a religion.

As for whether or not Jesus actually existed, that and, if he did, who he was in an historical context? Well no one really knows for sure; for those who claim they do, those secular Bible scholars, they claim he may have been married to Mary of Magdala and, more than likely, she bore his children. Atheists debate the possibility of Jesus existence. That said, WHAT IS THE REAL REASON FOR THE SEASON? I think I'll stick with that wise Jew named Mel Brooks on this one.

A Hollywood filmmaker, director, and producer, Mel Brooks was best known for his 1973 blockbuster hit Blazing Saddles. His second blockbuster movie being the 1984-85 hit Spaceballs:The movie, in it he-in the starring role, can be quoted telling his intern, a nice young " Drewish prince" [ spoof on Judaism], the following: "MERCHANDISING! MY DEAR BOY! IT'S ALL ABOUT THE MERCHANDISING!" Perhaps Mel Brooks knew more about the so-called " Reason for the Season" than anyone else.

Which brings me to the conclusion here as to what the meaningless to me, senseless, Holiday Season is REALLY ABOUT. " MERCHANDISING! IT'S ALL ABOUT THE MERCHANDISING!" [ Brooks]

I was an " Adam Lanza" but , in Newtown High School's Class of 1981, one was able to smoke their anger away in pot

A former student of Newtown High, Sandy Hook, CT, as the " gorrilla" I was unfortunately raised as, I was often " lost" like Lanza, dropping out after junior year and going on homebound education for special ed students. This after my family had a long, drawn out fight with the assholes at the Newtown Board of Education. That said, why am I not surprised as to how clueless the school's psychologists and guidance counselors are at NHS?

"Lanza continued onto 10th grade and integrated more with other students. Records reflected an ongoing underestimation of his actual disabilities. A community psychiatrist diagnosed him with Asperger’s Syndrome, but Yale Child Study Center clinicians did not conclude that he definitely had the disorder. He did however have severe anxiety and extensive needs, according to the Yale diagnosis."

An excerpt from my Facebook page, as the third anniversary of the Sandy Hook Elementary School shootings soon comes, once again, I question the motives of 20 year old Adam Lanza. Why did he do it? The official report [ Newtown Patch] from the State of Connecticut. 

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Gun Access

The report’s section on firearms and mental illness is less than two pages long. It notes that Adam Lanza had access to firearms as he grew-up. His father said in police interviews he didn't know his wife had been buying her own guns and assumed they were rented for shooting activities.

He eventually learned Adam Lanza had access to guns when he took him to a shooting range and he showed up with two long guns.

The authors go on to cite a 2010 study in the American Journal of Law and Economics that showed gun-related homicides in Australia dropped 59 percent between 1995 and 2006 and firearm-suicide dropped 65 percent following meaningful gun control regulations that outlawed possession of assault weapons following a mass shooting.

“Access to assault weapons with high capacity magazines did play a major role in this and other mass shootings in recent history. Our emphasis on AL’s (Adam Lanza) developmental trajectory and issues of mental illness should not be understood to mean that these issues were considered more important than access to these weapons or that we do not consider such access to be a critical public health issue.”

If your child has emotional problems, why not buy him a gun? Learning how to 

properly shoot at targets, rabbits, and other varmint can only help the dear 

boy. 

Right? Remember what Congressman Steve Pearce and the other Elephants 

say....guns save lives. 

Yes, the ass fucking hole of a Congress-MAN we have here in piece of shit, buck 

fuck ugly Southern New Mexico. Earlier this year, Pearce spent $20,000 of 

taxpayer's money on a round trip flight to Egypt. Why Egypt? Well the son of a 

bitch and his son/s own a company specializing in pulleys used on oil pump 

jacks. those funny looking things one will see as they drive through Western 

Texas and Eastern New Mexico, as well as CO, KS, and other western Mountain 

States. 

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“A Recipe for Mass Murder”

The report authors concede they can't definitively answer the question that has been on many people’s minds since Dec. 14, 2012: Why?

“There is no way to adequately explain why AL [Adam Lanza] was obsessed with mass shootings and how or why he came to act on this obsession. In the end, only he, and he alone, bears responsibility for this monstrous act,” the report went on to say.

Bull-fucking-shite! 

Lanza wanted to prove the correlation between chimpanzees raised as humans in captivity, and human children who also are, that when pressured to act civilized, both chimp and human child will eventually seek vengeance toward those who tried to civilize him or her. That's what he told some guy on an online radio station in Seattle,WA dedicated toward anarchistic values.

This was true. I listened to the radio call in show's transcripts and heard Lanza say this. About a year at the most before the tragedy in Newtown, Connecticut, a chimpanzee raised as a human child by a Stamford, CT woman lost his mind, at which time he snapped, went berserk, attacking the woman " mother" who raised him as a human. According to the somewhat screwed up brain of Adam Lanza, chimpanzees and human children react to being " civilized" in similar ways. Lanza stated that many of today's children are placed on psychiatric medication as young as six years old, even younger. Busy couples in America often have to both go to work in order to survive, the cost of a suburban, or semi-rural suburban [ Newtown] house on two acres costing upwards of $499,000. Yet the biological clock keeps ticking in these working mother's bodies; that and the immediate and extended families keep asking " When are you going to have children?" 

CHILDREN? YOU HAVEN'T THE TIME TO RAISE THEM PROPERLY, YOU FUCKING CUNT. However, unlike many of the Mexican-Americans here in Las Crucifixion, NM, US, you DO have the money to raise them correctly. SCHEDULED CHILDREN ON CONCERTA Concerta being one of the newest psych meds used for ADHD. That pathetic TV commercial showing the seemingly happy, upper-middle class parents with their now-perfect child. A child who, like his/her asshole fucking parents, can " do it all" and multitask, play TEAM sports, concentrate in school, and keep the goddamn teacher's happy. Nobody ever mentions that 1. the teenager/ child is probably bored shitless with school and what he/she is learning. 2. Like me when I was at Newtown High, the teenager simply cannot understand why, WHY, his parents feel that sports and other stupid shit is so important to his/her well-being. 

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This is a recent scene from Newtown Patch during and/or after a snowstorm. Looks like Castle Hill Rd. or Castle Meadow, Head O' Meadow Rds. in Newtown, CT. Yes, Newtown is a pretty place, still very much a small town despite the fact that it no longer retains those smaller town values, especially when we're referring to that laid back, small town way of life. Like many places in America and Canada where there are GOOD JOBS available for COLLEGE EDUCATED PEOPLE, places within a 10 to 50 mile commute of major business cities/suburban office parks, the cost of living has gone sky high and yes, life has become hectic. Las Cruces, New Mexico, I hate to say, is NOT one of these places; El Paso, TX is and Juarez, Chihuahua, Mexico is becoming one. Here in Cruces, " dogshit jobs" are the norm; McGarbage, Burger Slave, Scabmart, the latter [ Walmart] we have three of- all of them 24-hour supercenters. While Newtown, Connecticut is known for educated people living in nice houses, Las Crucifixion is essentially a dust bowl boomtown set among the Chihuahuan Desert. The median income being around $32,000 annually, for the most part, Las Crucifixion is a working class barrio with many Mexicans living among the stupidest goddamn white-bread redneck pieces of shite to be found anywhere outside Texas, Kansas, and the Bible-belt South. That and retirees who come for the sunshine in winter. Brad Paisley will be performing at New Mexico State University's Pan-Am Center; Las Crucifixion and El Paso are surrounded by US Military bases, White Sands Missile Range and Fort Bliss being among them. "Military" generally correlating with " ignorant  militant redneck asshole" and Republican-Christian church-attending stupidity, should Brad Paisley [ or any fucking Country-Western musician] selling out be of any surprise? Add in the retirees, many of whom are either retired military or regular church-goers, and you shall understand that.......STUPID IS AS STUPID VOTES. 

Back to Adam Lanza. Newtown High School's guidance dept. also sent me to that same childhood psychiatric clinic at Yale-New Haven Hospital's behavioral center. I had the special education guidance counselor assigned to Newtown High's students with handicaps and learning disabilities, Donna Fox. Seeing that, at the time I showed little interest in continuing on to higher education. College, after all, was a place where "preppies" and jockstraps went; along with some of the goody two shoes Christian townies active in the many student and town charities/ clubs. Despite being told that I was smart, and yes, a "gifted" child, like Lanza, I was an emotionally disturbed wreck filled with hatred toward many of my peers at NHS. Like Lanza, I was often bullied by the jockstraps and preps. 

And so, the clueless guidance counselor I had, Mrs. Fox as she was called back in the late 70s and early 80s, sent me to that fucking Yale clinic to see Dr. Warren Bower, MD. A childhood psychiatrist and clueless asshole [ report in my former blog, the Diary of Cheryl Lynne], all the stupid bitch could determine was this. That I was " grossly immature for my (chronological) age" and that I would " never be able to have successful relationships or friendships" because I was " too egocentric". In other words I acted NATURAL. Allowing my animal instincts to overrule all the superfluous ( ?) bullshit I was taught by my well-meaning parents, and yes, that goddamn piece of shit Cath-o-holic Church.